Wednesday, September 9, 2009
.jpg) There's soo many words i wanna let it out here. But at the moment i open new post, Poof ! All gone. Blank. Forgot what to update. Urgh~ There's soo many things playing on my mind, but there's not even one person knows what is all about. Tsk. Sigh. Just ytd Ean has to undergo his National Service. Hmpf, there he goes. Now, there's no one i can share my thoughts and sorrows with. Not to compared him with my Bbygs or whoever, but for like 1 yr plus i've known him, he's been all there to hear my problems or whatsoever to lighten up my burden. Although he can only give a pair of ears to hear all those baby-cry, my tantrums & stuff but still, he always have the idea to guide me out from my problems. He is like a guardian angel. Heh! But, not only to me, so do to some of his friends. He will always be by your side, whenever u have a problem eventhough u didn't spoke a word of anything. Ok, why am i talking about him ? Tsk! As you can see, i'm having some problems right now. & i don't have any idea who am i'm going to turn to. *insertsadface* This morning i couldn't even get up, stiff all over the body. Tried very hard to wake up for work but still i just can't even move myself. I'm soo shagged and restless. Ytd, half through putting up stock i rushed to the toilet and vomitted. Urgh~ I'm so weak right now. My sickness came back this morning, and i can assure i'm no longer working. Maybe ? Urgh!!!! Till this morning i went to the toilet vomitted. What happened to me, i also don't know why. I didn't expect that this sickness of mine will come back and became more worst! Parents don't mind if i have to resign from my job, as long that i'm in a good state of health. But what stressed me now is, Urgh?! Don't wanna talk abt it, i have to meet Imran to explain things out. This morning he called me. Was hell shocked, and i did not get back to him right after i had a good rest. Atikah said he texted me, but i didn't reply. Biler mase yg die msg ? Hmm. Maybe tmrw morning have to text him again. Tsk~ this is what happened when i'm too weak and fragile, everything washed away into the drain. Sigh. I feel like giving up my life now. Jobless,Sch-less. Everybody will look down on me, for sure. Hmm. Just say whatever u ppl want, i'm used to dealt with it. No one were in my shoes, that is why you ppl can't feel how pain it is."God, pls help me get out from this matter. Amin" Labels: Problematic. |
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