I'm deeply missing u ___________. Having you by my side, cherish those moments with you. :'( Having late night calls. Those little "dirty" stories that made us laugh out loud. Those snuffles, butt swinging,.almost everything ! Its almost a week we've not been contacting each other. Where did you go ? I've been thingking hardly about you. People may be seeing i'm smiling, laughing, joking around but not even one see the real me handling, thinking about the problems that i've been keeping all this long. All this long i hid all those tears from everyone, end up crying-sobbing out all alone in the middle of the night. The next morning, i will always have this head pains plus both of my eyes became more swollen. :'( I don't know what am i going to do next ? Been worried sick about you almost everynight. I don't wish any explaination or whatsoever, i just need you by my side. I've been forgiving and forgiving all your bad deeds to me, cause thats shows how much _____. I don't wish to say this but i just need to know, just one. Do you still wanna drag this problem ? Or do you still wanna move on with this relationship ? *sobsob* I don't wanna say this cause i just don't wish to break us apart. I just need your answer, pls don't make me feel so worried. Day by day i falled sick without people notice cause i don't wish to make them more worry about my sickness. *sobsob* I don't wanna be chased by medicine. Urgh ! Almost everyday, i had this pain in my head, but i kept going on with my daily life. I know i'm strong enough to face it. Insyaallah. Whatever it is, i just have to redha *(face the fact) and ready to go through it. :'( Each night whenever before i went to sleep i thank god that i found you in my life and how i wish it will be a lasting one. But i know, we can't hope too much, we draft it *(merancang), He's the one who decide. Before i close my eyes, i look onto your picture that i kept. Look through it for the last time before i went to sleep. Cause i wouldn't know when will i wake up again seeing your precious face for the last time. You're everything i need.