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Sunday, September 27, 2009
Migrains have not yet cured. Kept feeling this pain on my left side of head, like a head banging ! Today,i didn't ate much. Kakak, Ela and Me ordered KFC's for Mama. Just a small celebration from us. (: Our treats. Nyeet ~ Supposely will be going out for Raya with Family, but end up rotting at home. Cause everybody was tired since last night plus Uncle (Baba's sides) got into an accident. Sigh. Accidents everywhere, heart-breaking here & there. Hmm,. What's gonna happen next, its up to Him to make the fate. I feel so restless and weak right now, i don't know how can i endure this sickness for tomorrow. Tired and aches all over my body. Mostly the sensitive part of my body, which is my back. Urgh~ My right eye kept twitching and i felt it so irritated ! Nampaknye, tk lame lagi Cha will be crying alot. & I can sense that. Sigh. I'm soo confused, i don't know whats gonna happen next btwn me & _____. I can't bare to lose you, i can't bare to lose another special person away. I know u will surely said that i'm faking around. Its up to you to trust me or not. Just so you know, i feel soo bad treating you rudely on tt day. I can see you're trying your v best to console me with my sulky face but i kept on giving an attitude. Its not that i purposely treating tt to you, its just tt i'm really-really mad at you and i just can't hold the anger and those feelings on one.How i wish you can see thru me, see those feelings that i have been hiding. *crying*. I still rmbr the time how we fall for each other. I still rmbr how we first fought. I still rmbr how you badly console me when u're really in wrong. I still rmbr how you snuffle me for the first time. I rmbr how u whispered me into my ears to be your girl. I rmbr how u sang to me a bdae song when the time strike 12. I still cherish those days. Having u by my side, almost every night you will be calling me & sing to me some songs although its such a crap. *crying*. If u can see how i cried just because of you, you will see how sacrifice am i to this realtionship. God, pls help wake me up to be strong to get moving on with this kind of situation. Sigh. Each time i recall back how you make me laugh, how you shake and swing your butt in front of me, it make me burst into laughter but ending up crying all alone missing those reacts. Those snuffle, butt swinging, kiss on the cheeks. I hope its not for the last time. *crying*. I am a "gembeng girl" and this cry baby only cries for the person she loved and care the most. Its hard to see me crying cause every tears have been hidden deeply into those smiles and just have to wait for it to burst out loudly. *sobbing*. Boy, pls wake up from your fantasy, i'm hardly thingking bout u over here while you ? Where u gone to ? I'm sorry for the mistakes tt i've cause. *u should be wondering y am i asking for forgiveness*. Although i'm not really in the wrong , i just felt bad bout it & i can't assure if its never too late too ask for forgiveness. )': I hope every post tt i type wouldn't be such a waste. Hopefully u're reading this. I'm waiting. *crying*
As for Hafiz this is for you Dude : I know you wil not be reading this, but for sure you will read after u discharged from Hospital.(: This one Matrep is really-really daring doing this & that. End up skg pat ne Piz ? Ttsh ? Ape ckp ? Hehs. Hopefully u're doing just fine in there. I was shocked to hear the news that u've been admitted. Baru terserempak, dah pat ward. haiyo.. Rest well dude, so that u can be discharged soon. Don't be stubborn wanted to be discharged early while you're not fully recovered, u got me ? Hehs. Thanks for making me "senyum-senyum kambing eh" when i'm down. Grr! Hehe. Ape cite lgy eh ? Hmm, & oh.. Lovelife is always like that,. there may either be polygamy or battlefield. We just need to be calm and take things slowly. Insyaallah, if there's fate.It wouldn't go nowhere. Anything we just have to redha with it. (': I'm soo gonna winduuuuuuuuuu u Hafiz Edely. *in the cloud 9* Learn new word huh ? Lols. Get well soon dude. *edited at 12.14 am* haha. same fav colour. hoho! |
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