Friday, August 28, 2009
 Soo many things to update and story about, but i'm just soo lazy to elaborate and don't know where to start first. Sighed.I think i'll just cut short whatever in my mind now, so its not too long. Hmm, past few days accompany Lee to send her payslip at Jrg, like i've said on my last post. Before tt i was not in tt good terms with Mama. Settled the Hs spick and span and went off. In the first place i feel suspiciously to go out, since baba nagged bout something. Terang-terang Ba,Cha dah settle smue, what more ? Sighed. Cut short, aft accompany Lee, straight went home. Hmm, the day after,Worst! I can't describe what had happened to me ? Confused ? Gahh~ What i rmbr, Baba throw out soo many harsh words towards me, computer chair were thrown to me. Lucky enough it didn't hit me. *holdinguptears,tknk btl puase* hmpf. That particular day, i didn't get to grip tight to myself and burst to tears. *dah btl satu hari pose!* But still, i breakfast as usual. Dahlah, don't want to talk bout this anymore. *sobbed,not crying!* Hmm, the day tmrw again, all in their own silents. I didn't even bothered. Mama-Baba-Me, didn't even speak a word with each other. Sighed. Send twins, get afresh of myself outside and head home, since i have to send resume to Kak Sarah. If not i will be wondering outside if not bcos of this. Gahh~ Home, had my rest and was awaken by Yaya. Mama said whether i wanna follow her to SS. I agreed but still walked with silents. Only spoke some little words. In the SS then we started to talked as per normal, but still i felt unusual. Till now, i don't know why i can't forgive myself, eventhough its not my fault. Sighed. Afterwhich, helped mama and stuffs. Its been *hmm, i don't knw how many days, i've not yet talked or just blinked to look on baba face. Apart of it i feel very sorry, but another half i just feel so angry twrds him. But still, as a younger ones, i have to give in although how hard it takes, but still his my father. ): Dahdah~ Hmm, ytd went for an intv with Lee, Mama tagged along, since she need to find a new blender. Heh~ For the first time, i shivered like hell before its my turn to intv. One thing was the place is soo cold and the other thing was i don't knw y it is like nerve wrecking going for tt intv. Like not used to it. Bahh~ Alhamdulillah, berkat Mama was there too lar kan, i got the job straight away. Huhu~ But i'm not tt happy yet, usually the news will be passed to baba and baba sure will smile to his ears, but ytd was not the day. Kinda down for what had happened, but i just go on whats gonna happened. Just endure with his Ego, every men are like tt. Maybe? Sighed. This yr Ramadan is fulled with problems tt we have to endure. God is testing our patience tt is y we can't just give up yet. Kakak friends is fulled with probs, Ean, even Mak Busu. Was kinda shocked to heard the news tt Pak Busu was positive cancer. Sighed. Everything happened all at one. ): Insyaallah everything gonna be just find. Hmm, Loverboy ? Hmm, not in good terms ? I guess ? I don't knw. Ok, i'm sorry for what had happened. Its not my purpose to did this to u, its just tt i'm all stressed up. I can't be happily using the phone when in this Hs is still not in good terms plus my phone Hs sucks. That is y i have to think twice to used the phone. I can used my own hp to called u, but u knw how hard to topup kan, if the credit is finished ? I hope u could understand my situation now, so sorry to kept whatever probs to u. I just don't want to breakdown at the point since its fasting. Batal nty. Whatever it is, i'm sorry. Hmm, Monday gonna start work, lucky i've already bought my pants and polo t. Just need to alter my pants. Huhu~ Can't wait. & oh ya, i happened to bloghop and i found out tt she still missed us. i was shocked, if you happens to read mine, just wanna say this, we also missed you girl, whatever happened the last time, was not our purpose to do it. We too sorry for what had happened. Everybody make mistake in this world, no one is perfect. Its just a misunderstanding and sometimes ppl changed. We missed "girlfriends". I knw, tt word did not exist in ur dict anymore, but mcm rindu,like u said. (: Ok,i'm done,gonna cntinue my sleep.(: *those harsh words kept playing on my mind, but still it hepls me to wake up to endure and be more patience* Labels: i'm sorry everyone. |
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